"We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere." -Tim McGraw

I was in the shower, the burning hot fucking shower and all of a sudden my best friend popped in my head. Yes, out of all places the shower is where I think of her, hahahah! not to sound dirty in any way of course! lol. So I did this thing in Sociology last term, and I had to talk about someone who touched my life, and I happen to write about my best friend, Hollie. The best friend I could ever ask for, so now I am going to post it on here, so I can always go back to read it. I love you Nigger! (: 

Love, Nigglet. 

Hollie K. Evans also known as, my other half<3

(I could NEVER be complete, without you by my side. You are more then just a best friend, you're my angel sent from above, to stick by my side through thick and thin.)

This is the OLDEST picture in the world, but I love it :) ha ha. We were such goofs!

1.      One person that has made a great difference in my life would have to be my best friend Hollie Evans. She is such a beautiful, young lady. She has been through the hard times, the happy, and even the most dreadful. She is so strong, her strength is beyond mine. She knows what she wants, she sets goals, and achieves greatly. Not only that but she is a strong leader as well, she doesn’t give up. I look up to her so much, just knowing that she will always be there to teach me how to be strong. To see the greater side of life, and how the grass is always greener on the other side. Some qualities I could work on, and learn more from her is to NEVER LET ANYONE STEP ON ME. I need to learn how to stand my ground, and let them know that what they’re stepping on, I own that. She is a great role model, I envy her in so many ways. Learning to be strong, and loving me for who I am, will teach me how to be a stronger person. Hollie teaches me that everyday, I just need to let it get to me is all. Without her, I don’t know how or where I could get and be through life right now. Hollie, you are my best friend and YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIEND<3 I don't know how to live life without you. You've made such a great impact on my life, and I feel like if I ever lost you I would loose myself. I love you more then anything in this world and beyond. I would do anything for you, in a heart beat. I'd drink lots of red bull so I could grow a pair of wings just to come to your rescue! You mean so much to me, you are so good to me. I just hope you know, you are doing a great job as a best friend! We are going to grow old together, and have a happy family! (with out husbands of course hahaha) if I didn't write that in parenthesis I think people would think you and I were gay, lol! oh by the way... this got me an A on my "The great discovery." ha ha :D

"We ride together, we die together."

Love always, Nigglet 

"A life without cause is a life without effect." -Barbarella

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."

All I want to be is ME, not matter what it's going to be ME. Through thick and thin, it will always be ME. Living life everyday, through it all it will always be ME, MYSELF, and I<3

Okay, let's start this. So lately I've been really happy, I feel free FINALLY! My mom isn't quite the biggest bitch anymore. She talks to me now, even though she did tell me she hated me and blah blah blah. I know she loves me no matter what the hell happens, through thick and thin, she will never leave me. I think she did give up on me though, like she has tried so hard to keep me in one piece, but she failed. And I agree, she did fail she failed miserably! You see the picture I posted? I posted it for a reason, because in order to achieve greatness, I am NOT going to ask for permission. I am going to do whatever I please, and feel that is right. I am going to do ME<3 I love myself more then life it's self, I deserve great happiness, I deserve everything in the world that I work hard for. Ain't no stopping me now you know? :) Anyways, I just hope my mom knows that she didn't raise a fool. She raised a beautiful young lady, her baby, her daughter. My mom just doesn't understand the difference between living in America, and Asia. I can't tell her what to do, and what to think. But if she has given up on me, she needs to think twice. 

 SEN10R CLASS OF 2010!

Just about a month or so, and I am graduating! June 4, 2010 @ 7 is when my life is going to change. I am going to finally be out of High School! I am really excited, yet nervous at the same time. I'm kind of scared... as much as I hate High School, I will probably miss it. I need to make up a few credits though, or my ass is going to be screwed! I know that I can do it though, I believe in myself and no matter what I will be wearing that cap and gown that I deserve. I worked hard for this, and I will get through with this. 

Wish me luck! believe in me, as much as I believe in myself & I <3

Summer of 2010! who is excited?! because I sure am! :D
Look out world! Christine is done hibernating! :P I am going to come out and play, play, PLAY!


I think I am done blogging for the night:) I need to go to bed now, it's 2 a.m and I have school in the morning, ha ha. Good night world! :)

Hey world...

I've gotten a few words for you, fuck you. Just kidding! well, it's been awhile since I've blogged, I don't know where to start. There isn't much for me to say, besides that I feel like I have been through hell and back, the past few months. Well guess what, i do have a few words for you, and really all I have to say is..

FUCK YOU.

I'm starting over, ain't nothing going to stop me now :) 

Happily ever after...

I am going to hurry, and blog and then change and go to work! I am having a hard time, so I need to get this out. Today's blog, is just going to be about everything that I am feeling right now. And perhaps, maybe tonight when I read this over, I will remember what I need to do, because I have a few assignments for school, that I need to do:)

Anyways, will there ever be a happily ever after for me? that's the question, that I yet have not found out. But my answer, is yes there will be. Everyday of my life, for the past 18 years has been up and down and I'm still standing strong. I come from such a hard family, and I just sometimes don't know how I survive it. Like for instant, my mom she is INSANE! sometimes, I think she belongs in a mental institution. I don't know what the hell kind of love she expresses, for me but it sure as hell doesn't feel like love. i want to be able to grow up, I know that no matter how old I am to her I'm always going to be a baby. I wish she would just leave me alone, I am so use to her treating me like shit to the point that I don't care anymore. I love her, I always will because she is my mom. I can't wait till I graduate! and get the hell out of here, I am going to be a big girl, achieve and make my big dreams come true:)

Life is wonderful right now, if I minus the negative attitude my mom gives out. I have a wonderful support team, my best friends Ashley, and Jade. I have school, where I go everyday and just feel free! 

Are you ready for me?

So, it's been awhile since I've last blogged. Perhaps, this one today is going to be short, because I am going to go and spend some time with my best friend, since we were in 8th grade. Yep, my guy best friend Brightside, the only guy in the world that understands me, more then I do myself. That's why we are best friends, he is a great person indeed:) So... all I have to say is that I cannot wait for the new year to swing along. I am who I am, and I am not going to change for NO ONE but MYSELF! my mom is blaming me, for stuff she is doing, she is disappointed in me. But the person who she should be most disappointed in, is her self and not me. I did nothing wrong, I make mistakes, if she ever understood me and helped me, I would never be in this situation. I am going through the phase, where she went through when she was young. I am walking in her footsteps, and for that she is blaming me. If you were a better mother, we wouldn't be going through this. I am a big girl, I am 18 I still fear life, and your not helping one god damn bit, women. From now on, I am living life for me, and me only. I am not a selfish person, but I am sick of pleasing everyone but myself. From now on I am going to be who I am, I don't care anymore. I live, I learn, I make mistakes and I am going to grow from them. I am Phoung Christine Tran. I am a beautiful girl, inside and out. I am Filipino, Chinese, and Vietnamese. I am going to be the best person in the world. The thing is.. is this world really ready for me? because you know what.. I am. And I will be standing on top of the world, like I own it. I am going to be a strong strong women, just you watch me grow world. Jesus isn't going to even stop me, he's going to help and guide me, fool.

What am I doing...... is this what I really want? Is this really the right choice... my mind is full of questions...

All I wanna know is, WHAT THE FUCK. Okay, maybe those weren't the right words, but still.. I still wanna know WHAT! questions are filled, in my brain! I don't know what I'm doing, in a way I do. Is this what I really want, is this for sure? am I going to be happy with this. We'll see, we shall see where this leads me. Where I'm going to end up, i'll see how things end up. Maybe this is the whole new things coming for me. Maybe this is the part that is going to spice up my life. Good god, I don't even know. Life right now, life is good. I'm doing good, I'm happier then ever. I just hope that what I think I'm doing is right.